This is the second anxiety attack I’ve had in 3 days

it is so fucking scary. I can hardly move, I can’t talk, my heart pounds so loudly, my pupils constrict my head spins, and all I can think of is, “You stupid girl, control yourself” Why is this happening? I am so frustrated. I want to burst into tears. I messed up an English Oral because of one and I feel the after attacks of shaking, stomach pains, feeling queasy. I actually thought that my nausea was from not eating properly, but I tried eating my whole kitchen and it didn’t fix anything. It is clearly stress, and I honestly don’t know why I am about to crack and why I have been panicking so much. I am scared for my sanity and my colon which will inevitably suffer. Can University of Toronto or McMaster just accept me? I’m dying here. Literally, because my airways keep blocking and my body keeps LOCKING. This is from a girl who has never had a panic/anxiety/fear attack before the English Commentary.